Lavender Rain

I really love being able to stay home to raise my baby, but I still don’t know what I’m going to do when I go back to school and work. People here expect you to go back to work after having a baby. The question people ask new moms is, “When are you going back to work?” Why do people assume that right after giving birth you are ready to go back to work? You are dealing with something big here, something life altering. From the emotional stresses to feeling incompetent, and worrying if you’re doing something wrong. I know any new mom can just go back to work after taking maternity leave and they have the option of hiring people to watch their child. But the idea of having somebody else watching my kid is scary to me. I just don’t want just anyone watching my baby. I don’t trust others and besides I might miss something. I don’t mind leaving her with family for a few hours, but I really don’t like the idea of getting a nanny or taking her to a daycare center, especially if I’m working full-time. I don’t like daycare centers, because the kids don’t get the undivided attention that they need, but at the same time your child will develop social skills as they learn to interact with other kids. But I also don’t like nannies or live-in caregivers, because I just don’t trust them! You don’t know who they are and you don’t know how they’ll be around your kid. Just the idea of having a stranger alone with my kid is frightening. Or am I just being paranoid and overprotective?

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