(POST-WEDDING) I can finally post! I know that it has been a while. Life has been hectic lately. As I mentioned in the previous entry, I just got married on November 15, 2008. It really was a beautiful wedding and I couldn’t have asked for more. I really was not expecting for things to turn out fine. I was actually expecting the worse. The hall not being set up on time, the photographers getting sick, me tripping as I walk down the aisle, etc… I pretty much was thinking of all the worse things that could go wrong. In the end, things turned out well. Not perfect, but that’s to be expected. I am really thankful that I am surrounded by people who are selfless and are willing to volunteer their time to help us. People who I never expected to help went out there and did so much more than I asked. I really can’t thank them enough.
(LIFE) How’s married life so far? To be honest, I don’t really feel much different. It isn’t a big change compared to becoming a mother and having a baby. I still feel the same. But I know that I do have more responsibilities. I’m no longer just a mother; I am also a wife now. I definitely feel like I have more to do at home. I feel like cleaning the house everyday is mandatory. Because of this thinking, I kinda felt overwhelmed… I have a 9-month old who loves to crawl everywhere. She picks up little things off the floor and eats it. She also loves to play with electronics. She is particularly fond of TV remotes. Yesterday, I woke up at 7 in the morning and first thing I did was the laundry. Then I made breakfast, changed Zoe’s diaper, routine, routine… Afternoon came and I realized that I didn’t even eat yet. So I tried to make myself food. It was impossible! She never let me get any cooking. What would’ve taken 20 minutes took me 4 hours to do. Zoe is growing through separation anxiety. I don’t know how other moms do it. I don’t know how they get things done… I for one have learned how to wash the dishes with one hand as I hold Zoe with the other, because she loves to watch me. I know that I can’t do that while I am cooking…
So by the end of the day, as I watched Zoe drift to sleep while nursing her, I began to think of this little baby that God blessed me with. As I watched her, I realized that I was too busy trying to get things done around the house. I was too busy trying to finish things. I realized that I didn’t even get to really spend my time just to play with her. I got too busy running around. Someday this little baby girl will grow into a beautiful woman… and someday she will leave home…. I should be enjoying every moment that I can while she is still young, while I can still hold her… I forgot the reason why I wanted to do this, why I wanted to be a stay at home mom… I want to see all the firsts, I want to be there as my children are growing up…. Because someday they are all going to grow… Someday they are going to leave us… The one who will stay with me for the rest of my life isn’t going to be my kids, but it’s going to be my husband. I know that I am trying to be a good housewife for Josh and for this family that we are building. I thought that I could do that by getting all the housework done. But it’s difficult. But I can still do my best. I just need to get my priorities straight. Deal with baby first before housework… — and of course it’s all about balance.
Anyway, I gotta go end this post now… but of course I’ll end it with pictures under the cut…
She is also teething so my dad bought her a new teething ring.
