Lavender Rain

My husband thinks I always have to be obsessed with something. He says that I have gone through so many different obsessions. At one point, I was obsessed with the Backstreet Boys. Then writing fanfictions… and then Final Fantasy… then comes The Sims 2, producing Vanity High. And then, there’s scrapbooking. He says right now, my current obsession is baking/cake decorating. He says he’s going to give me about a year and see how interested I am on baking and cake decorating.

I don’t know… Every time I am interested in something and go after it, I put my heart and soul into it. I dedicate a lot of my time towards a certain interest. I’m a passionate person. Also, I love to try new things. I want to see if I’m able to do it or not. I’m a Jill of all trades! Not sure if I like to be called that, but it’s kind of true. I already told my husband what I would like to try after cake decorating. I want to do beading and sewing next. But right now, cake decorating is number one in my hobby list. He thinks I should stop accumulating hobbies! I am also hoping that I stick to baking and cake decorating for a really long time. I believe that it’s one of the more useful hobbies that I have ever acquired. Not only I get to be creative, but I get to share what I made with other people and they enjoy it! I really have high hopes. I think that I’m going to be baking and cake decorating for a really really long time. But then again, we shall see.

It’s been a while since I blogged. I just really didn’t know what to blog about lately. I could’ve blogged about how sick I have been feeling since December, but I won’t get into that. Okay, I have to admit that I have been feeling bored and lonely being the only adult to supervise my daughter Zoe most of the day. I especially feel this way more when my husband works until late at night. I am just so exhausted by the time he gets back home past 9. I hardly get time to myself… I really don’t mind being home to take care of our daughter, but hate it when I have to wait for my husband to come home at 9pm. There are also those days when I just don’t feel like doing anything at all… but I know I have responsibilities. There are also other reasons that contribute to this, but that is a private matter.

So hubby and I still need to write down realistic and achievable goals for 2009. I’m still trying to come up with my New Year’s Resolution — one that has to do spiritually and physically and another “selfish” type of resolution. I am thinking that I deserve to have a day to myself once in a while. It would be nice to not think about parenting for a day.

The first baby is me. The baby in the middle is Josh, my future husband. And finally, the picture on the right hand side is our daughter, Zoe. Do you see the resemblance? It is kinda scary, isn’t it?

The reason I have our baby pictures is because I am currently working on a slide show presentation that will be shown on our wedding reception. I enjoy video editing so much, but I am stuck at the moment. I can’t seem to come up with the right music to play to set the mood that I want to achieve.

Only 2 more weeks left before my wedding day! It is so close! I still have so much to do.

I have been thinking a lot lately… about how life altering having a baby is. I used to live a selfish life before my daughter entered my life. It was all about me. Now that I think about it, my previous life consisted of a lot of shopping trips and dining out with Josh. I enjoyed life for myself. And I have come to the conclusion that it was a big waste of life and time when I did those things. But there were times when I chose to spend my time carefully by learning more about God, by studying His Word. I listened to the teachings by my pastor-teacher. Those were the times that I have grown and changed to be a better person for Him. All those have been worth my time. But shopping for hours on end was a big waste of my time indeed. I am looking at my closet full of clothes that I no longer fit in anymore. This was all a big waste. But hey, at least I learned from it. I had fun wearing those clothes and I had precious memories wearing them. Good times, good times. I’m not saying that there’s something wrong with shopping and dining out. Today those 2 activities are a big treat for me now. I hardly leave the house to go out. I can’t just get up and go. I don’t have that same type of freedom anymore.

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Today is a holiday here — it’s Canada’s birthday today. I’m not sure what’s going on today with the rest of the family. I don’t know if I really want to go to the park to watch the fireworks, because it’s too hot. I really dislike this weather and I know that Zoe doesn’t appreciate it either. I guess I don’t mind just watching the fireworks from my house. The park is really close to where I live anyways, so I think it should be fine.

Zoe got to visit her daddy’s work yesterday. I didn’t want to stay at home yesterday because it was too hot inside, so I decided to take Zoe to West Edmonton Mall with my mom, sister, and my cousin. I had to pick up Zoe’s stroller from Josh’s work beforehand. I could tell Josh is really in love with his daughter. He loves to show off Zoe to everybody.

Josh and I enjoyed a wonderful steak dinner over the weekend. We’re both big fans of steak. He cooked the steak while I made the mashed potatoes and macaroni salad. It’s fun cooking together and just enjoying dinner together as a family. It was kind of a busy weekend for us. We were doing some wedding planning so a nice steak dinner was a nice treat indeed.