Lavender Rain

I am honestly getting worried about this pregnancy. Many people have noticed that I seem to be losing weight, that I appear thinner than usual… I can’t really check my weight because we don’t have a scale here. I feel bad for my baby because I haven’t been paying much attention to this pregnancy. I have been too busy taking care of Zoe and my husband to even take care of my health and my unborn baby’s health. I must admit that every time there is nothing to eat here at home but instant noodles or canned foods, I end up not eating… I find them to be disgusting. Sometimes when I try to eat, I don’t finish even if I’m hungry. Perhaps I’m a picky eater, but sometimes I feel like I’m gonna throw up if I eat something I don’t like. I never had this problem with my first pregnancy. When I was pregnant with Zoe, sure, I did lose weight rapidly from hyperemesis but I gained weight as soon as I recovered from that disease.

I have been praying more about this baby. I just want a healthy baby. I hope that I gain weight the way I’m supposed to. Losing weight during pregnancy is scaring me… and I’m already on my second trimester, so I’m supposed to really start gaining those pounds.