I look at my reflection in the mirror and wonder who that girl is staring back at me. Her face looks exactly like mine, but she looks exhausted, confused, and overwhelmed. All of a sudden, this girl has a huge responsibility… Her priorities have changed. Her lifestyle is changing. Her body feels like it’s no longer hers. She holds her breath and tries her best to understand it all…
All of a sudden she is responsible for another human being 24/7.
Am I still Kristine? Yes, but now I’m also Zoe’s mother.
I’ve been having these kinds of thoughts ever since I gave birth to Zoe. I don’t understand it all and this whole thing has been a very emotional experience. When I gave birth to Zoe, two people were born: Zoe and a new mother.
Where did the old me go?
It feels like she just vanished into thin air. Or was I just living in a fairy tale and this is really my reality?
Once upon a time, I was Kristine, a full-time student who worked part-time at Scan Copy Print. Once upon a time, there was a girl named Kristine who enjoyed wasting her time in front of the computer. Once upon a time, there was a girl named Kristine who played a lot of video games. It really feels like those days when I didn’t have a baby were long gone. It was just another “once upon a time.”
Now I am a stay-at-home mom. I love being able to stay with my baby all day, all night… but now I feel like I need to find myself again.
